December 2014

Whereas misinformed nostalgia can only
lead to foolishness and lame confidence in superstition,
some practical/accidental yearning can render such doubt into extinction. 

With this in mind, consider the following:
My father had his fifth heartattack in 25 yrs. when
I was living by myself and suffering from every
lie, insecurity and assumed-value of everyone around me.
I became very suicidal and checked myself into the hospital.
And along with some new faces and a more-familiar social life
than I'd known in over a year, I got to navigate some new insecurities, lies,
and a different kind of value altogether. 

That is, we had a t.v. room with comfortable chairs and one perfect,
democratic night, they had the original Charlie & the Chocolate Factory playing, and
between me and the others on the psych ward, you could feel this indelible innocence, some cross-channel, resistant to insanity and decay where all our meaningful 
and meaningless scars are reduced 
to topography. 



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